Welcome!

Hey anyone reading this... welcome to my blog! Please bear with me while I figure out how all this works. This is my first attempt to blogging, but I'm super excited to get started. It's something I've thought about for many years but always felt I was too busy or I just wasn't quite ready yet. Now I figure, if I wait till I'm ready for pretty much anything, it'll never happen. Sometimes I just have to push myself to do the thing, as scary as it can be.

I've had a couple school essays published, which I will try and find to upload to the site. When I was about 11 or 12 I had a poem published, I remember feeling like it really wrote itself. I had no idea where it had come from, but my pre-teen mind thought it was brilliant. Sadly, I have searched and searched for said poem, without any luck.

The more I try and remember this poem, the more vague it seems to get. I remember there being a twist at the end, something about first writing about a "friend" but then at the end the friend ends up being myself. Something about being caught up in some bad stuff and not knowing where it was going to take me/friend. I also remember something about being buried. That's not a lot to go on, but that's also why I've never been able to find it. This was back in the late 90's when home internet first became a thing.

I've always loved reading and writing. I love how it gives you that escape that some of us so desperately need. I have a lot to learn still, and I know my writing and how I structure things needs to get better. But I'm here to learn, share my thoughts and experiences and read/listen to other's thoughts and experiences.

Sometimes it's really hard to branch out and meet people. For me, I have trouble formulating what I want to say when I'm speaking. Writing gives me the opportunity to get the words a little more on track with what I'm actually trying to express. Sometimes I feel I have a sort of verbal dyslexia where I will say the opposite of what I actually mean but won't realize it right away.

I've always struggled with socializing, which I have come to learn is quite common among my fellow age group of 30 to 40-somethings. It was always easier to make friends online. Growing up in the 90's and early 2000's, my mom worried that all my friends were online (which wasn't even accurate), she even took me to see the school counselor because of it. Now, 30ish years later it's become basically the norm.

This has been sort of all over the place, but welcome to the inner workings of my mind, it's never been quite right :)

This is just a little bit about me, I just want to make sure anyone who stumbles across this site feels welcome here in my little world. I wish I could adopt all the outcasts and misfits in the world, you are my people and I welcome you!

-Elle Rose